It’s been a while since I updated my blog, and all I can say is that things are going GREAT! I’ve spent a week with my family from Norway, my pregnancy nausea is SO much better, we’ve seen our little baby boy on ultrasound and he’s doing AMAZING, my mindset keeps getting stronger by the day, my faith in God is deeper than ever, and my marriage with Anthony is the best it’s been! <3
…Now it’s just up to me to keep this beautiful flow growing and blossoming into an even greater season to come! I’m so grateful for the people I have in my life now. They are all in alignment with what I both believe in and value in life. I never knew that friends could create such a huge change in how my life feels like.
Surrounding myself with people who love me for who I am, who want me to be the happiest version of myself, and who would go beyond their limits to make me feel just a little better, those are the people who inspire me to keep going on the darker days. You really don’t have to go though life yourself! There are people out there waiting to be your light. Just open yourself up to their energy and know that they will arrive at the perfect time.
We’re half way through our pregnancy, and I’ve never experienced a transformation greater than this one – mentally, emotionally, and spiritually that is. When you grow another LIFE inside you, there’s just a new type of magic that’s being felt! Simply being pregnant inspires me to be a million times more loving towards myself, and I couldn’t have asked for a more beautiful blessing to be gifted with. The love we have for ourselves, affects EVERYONE around us!
Many people think I’m a very positive person and that I always believe that there’s a bigger reason for everything that happens. That’s not completely true. Yes, I do believe there’s a Divine Source that guides us and shapes this Universe with a higher consciousness, but from time to time, I’ve had tendencies to lose my faith in the Divine. Especially when I’ve been at my lowest.
Some seasons of my life, I have to work very hard to keep my spirit up and stay grounded. Being “positive” is a daily practice for many, and I’m definitely one of them. When I fall of my Soul work waggon, it’s easy for me to feel down, anxious, and even depressed. Luckily, how we feel, is our own decision! And if I want to feel AMAZING, I have to consciously DO the things that makes me feel that way.
This year is definitely a year where I’ve promised myself to be more chill and trust the natural flow of life. And it feels SO good! And just imagine for a moment, that there’s no such thing as “a greater meaning” or a God energy. Should we just give up our lives and not do our best? NO! We should appreciate life for what it is and make the best of it. That’s where I’m at right now. I’m really working on accepting everything that unfolds in my life, then do my best with what I have. Because, why not? God or no God, you’re the creator of your own life.
I’m wearing the coziest jacket EVER! It’s sooo soft! Need to be all snuggled up now that it’s so cold in St. Petersburg, haha! I got it on sale HERE!
Here’s what has happened and changed during my 18th week as pregnant!
💛👶🏼 June 6th 2018👶🏼💛
The size of the baby:
Our baby is now 5 1/2 inches long, and weighs almost 7 ounces, about the size of a bell pepper. He or she can freely flex its arms and legs, and we felt the very FIRST kicks on New Years Eve!!!
My stomach feels and looks a little bigger this week, and I LOVE it! My face is a little better when it comes to my acne, and my nausea and stomach aces are a lot better! I don’t have to pee as much, which feels like a blessing, lol! I also feel a lot more hungrier now, which is a GREAT sign. Even though I can’t stomach most foods and cooked dinners, I find it much easier to eat now than before.
I’ve gained 2 pounds this week, which is a start, haha! I still get shocked every time I look at myself in the mirror, but I’m definitely going in the right direction.
A lot better than earlier! I even had the energy to visit Anthony’s family in New Jersey last week. Where we did a few activities, went food shopping, walked in New York etc. I had plans on starting yoga again this week, but I still haven’t gotten around to doing it. I know it would be good for me, because my body feels sore, fragile, and stiff after not working out in MONTHS!
I’m still having dreams about Norwegian candy and Pepsi Max, haha! I like eating toasts, fruit salads with OJ and chocolate chip on top, and drink hot chocolate. But not really any cravings.
Hmm… I would say snacks. I need to get better at snacking between meals, so I get my calories up and keep the nausea away. It’s just hard to eat when you’re not hungry or feel a little groggy. Anthony helps me on this part, maybe even a little bit too much, haha! My stomach was growling at 1 AM last week and he made me wake up and go eat. Very concerned Dad to be<3
My stomach keeps growing and I had to say bye bye to another pair of jeans. It’s not that I’m big – at all – but it’s a lot more uncomfortable wearing tight clothes now. I also know that I have to stop comparing myself with other pregnant women, with A LOT bigger tummies than me… I know everyone’s growth during pregnancy will be different, and as long as the baby is growing healthy, that’s all that matters! (It’s just do darn cute with big baby bumps, lol!)
A LOT better! I feel more content, lighter, happier, and stronger. However! I get angry A LOT faster now than I usually do, and I don’t like it. When Cody is acting up, I fire up inside. I need to channel my anger into something more productive… It’s not healthy for the baby to feel my anger, and it’s sooo important for me to create a safe space for the baby while being in the womb.
The same as last time: finding out the gender and buying cute baby clothes! We hopefully get our ultrasound this week. The ultrasound is all that I think about these days. One night I dream about having a girl, then the next I’m having a boy, then I’m having a girl again, haha! My dreams are confusing me, but I do feel like my intuition is more heavy on one of them…
2018 is the year of alignment and pure trust in the natural force of life.
🦋 2018 is the year where you let go of the need for control and rather surrender to the universe’s wisdom and perfect alignment. You go from feeling emotions like fear and disappointment, to feeling a deep sense of trust and a powerful knowing of success.
🦋 2018 is the year where you go deeper than ever and see your shadows with new eyes. Eyes that makes you see the beauty in the dark and helps you love every part of who you are. Yep, even the darkest parts of you, because you know they were given to you for a grander reason than just “to be the dark parts of you”.
🦋 2018 is the year where you free yourself from shame, pressure and self-sabotage. Instead, you allow yourself to just be. You know that you’re more than enough right now, and that you’re able to accomplish whatever you want, as long as you do it for YOU, and for the RIGHT reasons.
🦋 2018 is the year where you create healthy, thriving, and authentic relationships that makes you feel special and loved. Not relationships based on neediness and possession, but relationships that are based on growth and unconditional love.
🦋 2018 is the year of NO limitations. You can have WHATEVER you want at WHATEVER speed you’d like. YOU are the one setting limitations to your flow of abundance, success, and happiness, so why set any?! Just know with all of your being that you have the Divine power to attract your biggest desires just as fast as your smallest wishes.
🦋 2018 is the year you have the opportunity to contribute the amount of money you’ve always wanted to contribute with to you favourite charity, a friend in need, or to surprise your family with.
🦋 2018 is the year where vacations can be booked without having to live of off bread and water the next 4 months after. The trip is already booked and you have more than enough money to surprise a friend to come with you.
🦋 2018 is the year you consciously shift your resentment and anger to understanding and forgiveness.
🦋 2018 is the year of shameless self-indulgences where you do things for yourself, simply because you want to, it feels good, and you DESERVE to.
🦋 2018 is the year where your focus lies on self-realization. Nothing is more important than going towards a deep peace of mind and a heightened state of awareness. Only YOU can set yourself free! Materialistic possessions won’t keep you happy, but a conscious commitment to raise your personal frequency will!
🦋 2018 is the year where being authentic and vulnerable comes natural to you. It’s who you are, simple as that. The people you attract into your life this year are genuine, respectful, funny, purpose driven, loving, wise, compassionate, gentle, and strong individuals, because YOU manifested them by your daily choice of practicing the same traits.
My sweater is from Shein.com HERE!
I truly had the most amazing New Year’s Eve, one that I will remember forever! Anthony surprised me with tickets to go see Kevin Heart in Orlando, which was the BEST surprise to start 2018 of with!!! Aaaand, we got to share the hilarious experience with our good friend, Sallé, that we love so much.
RIGTH before the clocked ticked midnight, our baby decided to give a its FIRST kicks, just to let us know he or she is coming out with SO much power in 2018! It was such a surreal moment… I could both SEE and FEEL our little baby though my bump. Suddenly it all felt sooo much more real! It’s during moments like these, life feels like the biggest blessing.
2018 is the most beautiful, successful, transformational, growth oriented, and Divine year yet. Amen.
Pregnancy is GREAT when it allows you to feel like a human again, haha! I’ve had many good days in a row now, and just enjoying being pregnant feels amazing. This new pillow that I got saved me from my sleepless nights, so now I finally get to sleep thought the whole night (minus a few restroom visits, hehe.) I got it HERE! I use it for when I’m sleeping, but it’s also perfect for relaxing in bed while reading. It gives the best support for your back and stomach.
I’m obsessed with notebooks, journals, and planners, so when I saw Target’s new line, I had to get a few of them! SO CUTE! My husband got me a whole book of notebook stickers which makes it so much more fun to create new plans, haha! I’m a planner at heart, and it’s important for me to find ways to make my to do lists inspiring and motivating.
Get my adorable and comfy PJ set HERE! for only $14! I’m wearing a size small.
Wishing you love, strength, healing, and great blessings for 2018. Be the flow, don’t force it. Trust in God and know that you’re exactly where you need to be. Give more love than you think is necessary. Be fully open to receive what you want. Know that you deserve the BEST.
It’s so crazy to think about, that next year, we’ll be cooking the same cookies, but with a baby on our lap! I can’t believe it. I mean, it’s still not real to me that I’m pregnant, let alone that I’m going to share my whole life with this little one. It’s a surreal feeling! I guess the only and biggest question is, “Am I ready for all the love this baby is going to bring into my life?” It still scares me how much I’m going to love my child. It might be a weird thing to worry about, but I do.
I’ve started praying to my baby more, and it has helped me feel a much stronger connection with its soul. In the beginning of my pregnancy I had a hard time connecting, and I felt like something was off. It was a very sad feeling. Mostly because I always thought I would INSTANTLY connect with MY baby. Sometimes our expectations creates tension and blocks, and all we need to do, is to surrender to what is, and not cling to what should have been.
Before I started praying to the baby, I prayed to God and asked if he could help me release the negative emotions I had towards myself and the relationship I (didn’t) have with my baby. I asked if he could forgive me for being negative. I asked if he could help me start all over and create an even deeper connection with my baby.
Once I felt the natural attraction towards me and my baby, I just knew that a Divine shift had happened and it suddenly became easy for me to connect with, talk to, and pray for my baby. Even though I’ve been mad at myself for not talking to my baby more in the beginning stages, I just have to forgive myself and know that things happen when they’re supposed to, not when we push them to happen.
Now, when I tell my baby “I love you”, I can really feel it, and it brings tears to my eyes EVERY single time. I no longer feel the need to connect, I want to. There’s nothing more important to me, than to heal myself, my unborn baby, and the relationship we share BEFORE he or she comes out and meet us physically.
I really do believe that there’s a bunch of things a mum can do for its baby’s healing while still being in the womb. The baby’s soul is not fully integrated with its body until the day of birth. And the more the child reconnects with its soul after birth and while it grows up, the more it will remember from what happened before conception and wile being in the womb creating its physical body.
One of the BEST things about being pregnant, is definitely how it makes me want to seek even deeper inwards, to where my Soul lives, where also the God in me lives. Every second of everyday, God’s pure energy is flowing though us all from our Higher Self; where we connect with our God consciousness. However! It’s OUR job to consciously put our awareness back into the place within us where all this energy reside.
Getting back in tune with our God consciousness and really feeling that we’re operating from our Higher Self is a daily practise we have to commit to. Usually, most of us are so lost in our day to day life that we simply forget to check in with ourself and really ask ourselves what we need in order to live life though a Soul deep state.
What this pregnancy has done for me, is to remind me of how important it is to, not only daily, but multiple times a day, reconnect with the God in me. To take a break and say a prayer, or to simply just take a few deep breaths to calm my mind and be still with myself.
This baby that I’m creating is reminding me to nurture and heal my inner child; my Soul. The baby is leading me in a healthy direction, spiritually, and it feels so good. I mean, I won’t be able to be a nurturing mom to my child, if I don’t even take the time to heal the child in me! (Maybe the baby knows this, and just wants to push me to become a better mommy for him or her as soon as possible, haha!)
Personally, I’m extremely interested in conscious and gentle parenting and I know that the more I’m in tune with myself, my emotions, my psychology, my physiology, my spiritual patterns, my fears, and my desires, the easier it will be for me to connect with my child’s needs, on all levels.
I’ve had a few days filled with bad nausea and low energy, so getting this package in the mail from my family back in Norway made me so happy!!! Ahhh, when I’m not able to eat anything, I can always get down a bowl of tomato soup with macaroni. MY FAVORITE! The first thing I did when I got home yesterday, was to make some soup<3
And to recap from the topic;
Recently, I’ve talked to five other women who also are pregnant, and they all say the same. They feel SO much more confident and the level of inner-strength and self-love they hold, is SO much higher now than it has ever been! It’s definitely true, that creating a new life and knowing that you’re becoming a mum, really does empower you in ways you can’t even describe!
It’s magical… You just know that you’re ready to do ANYTHING for your future child! And it all starts with the connection we as mothers commit to holding with our Soul and Higher Self before, during, and after the pregnancy. If we’re not in connection with ourself, how can we connect with anyone else?
Here’s what has happened and changed during my 15th week as pregnant!
💛👶🏼 June 6th 2018👶🏼💛
The size of the baby:
Our baby is now 4 inches long, crown to rump, and weighs in at about 2 1/2 ounces; like the size of an apple. The baby can already sense light and will move away from strong light beams. Its bones are getting stronger and tastebuds are forming. (I hope you like licorice, like mommy!)
Nothing crazy this week, luckily! My face is the same when it comes to my acne, and my nausea is under control most of the time.
I’m working on it as we speak, haha! I’ve been eating a lot today and it feels GREAT! I’ve lost a little over 10kg (around 22 pounds) since finding out I was pregnant, and I’ve kept loosing weight, but now I’m able to eat again and I feel much better! Things are looking up and I’m excited for this baby to gain some rolls with me, hehe!
As you might remember from last week, I was completely helpless. This week however, I’ve had the energy to draw, go to the store by my self, clean the house, work, play with our dog… I still need A LOT of sleep, but I don’t feel like I need naps throughout the day, as of right now. I do get exhausted after doing stuff, but at least I can do them!
I really don’t have the intense cravings people are talking about, but I do think about Norwegian candy A LOT, haha. I even dream about it… Something I’ve been loving lately, however, is hot chocolate, fresh Panda licorice, toast, and mandarines!
I’m no longer able to sleep on my stomach, and that’s a big issue for me! I just can’t fall asleep in any other position, I keep trying and trying to sleep, but no… So I need to get a pregnancy pillow that can support my growing stomach. I’ve heard they’re suppose to help a lot! *fingers crossed*
My stomach grew this cute little bump over night in the start of the week, and I’m still super excited EVERY TIME I walk past a mirror!!! I can now FEEL that there’s something there, even though I’m yet to feel kicks… I think those will start in just a few weeks!
I’ve been feeling a bit more low the last few days, but nothing crazy. Just a lot more emotional, sensitive, and melancholic. If Anthony says something that I find the slightest insensitive (not even), I will shed a little tear when he goes into another room, haha! Also, if I think about how I feel the baby is going to be as he/she grows up, or I see someone I feel could be our child (personality wise), I start crying.
Finding out the gender(!), buying baby clothes and other necessities, feeling the baby’s kicks, and last but NOT least, being able to eat more! Tomorrow marks our 16th week! Every new week is exciting and very different!
My husband’s thoughts:
“Being a father has always been a dream of mine.
And now that I’ve been blessed with the opportunity to be a dad, I’m committed to doing whatever it takes the become the best dad I can be.
Personally, I basically grew up without a dad. After my biological father beat my mom, brother, and I up, took our money and left at age 4. Came back years after until I just removed him out of my life for good…
Because who needs that level of negativity in their life anyways…. and I do forgive him.
My mom remarried to my stepdad but when I lived at home, he’d always be working early days and late nights.
I always knew when I’m a dad, I won’t work long days and nights. I’d schedule very specific moments for our children and I to get to know each other more and deepen our bond.
Children have so much wealth and value to share. Heck, they come into this world with no persona’s given to them. Experiencing their purity is going to be such a remarkable gift.
And to be blessed with the ability to experience that with my beautiful wife – puts a tear in my eye.
I cannot WAIT to be a dad.”
I’ve found THE best way for groing out my hair, and I’ve tried a lot of different things like “hair growth pills”, eating more of this or that, shampoos to trigger the scalp, massaging the scalp for x amount of minutes a day… The list goes on. But this last trick that I found really works wonders and it works FAST! I’ve only tried it twice and have already gotten compliments!
Only do this treatment once a month, so you don’t over stimulate your scalp. But really, all you need is a one or two time treatment and you’ll see results! Here’s how to do it:
💛 Get your dropper bottle ready, so you can put the serum inside there for easiest and best application.
💛 2 table spoons of Castor oil HERE! (increases hair growth by 3-5 times and repairs/heals your scalp.)
💛 15 drops of Rosemary HERE! (increases hair growth by 23% and decrease hair loss.)
💛 Shake well to make sure it’s all blended.
💛 Start by applying the serum to the lower part of your scalp and work your way up in sections. (like if you were to colour your roots)
💛 Massage it all in. Spend some time doing that, because it will help you get the serum into the scalp and start the blood circulation.
💛 Tilt your head upside down for a few minutes to get more blood to your head.
💛 Let the serum sit in your hair for minimum 3 days before you wash your hair with a good rinsing shampoo. (If you have more serum left, reapply the next two days)
💛 Every time you wash your hair in between each treatment (once a month until you’re happy with the results) massage your hair for two minutes while you have the shampoo in your hair.
Ps. Castor oil is also amazing to grow out eyebrows and eyelashes! I lost 80% of my lashes (seriously, I was bold) after I got my eyelash extensions done with someone I shouldn’t have trusted. I’ve NEVER had trouble with eyelash extensions before, so seing my bold eyes were shocking. Luckily they came back after two weeks of using castor oil!
There’s been A LOT of changes for me since becoming pregnant, but seeing a bump hasn’t been one of them, so seeing it today made me SOOO happy!!! I know, it’s not big, but you can definitely see it, haha! And that’s all that counts! I actually started crying looking through the pictures I took today…
The biggest changes for me has been:
The pain – I can’t describe with words the amount of physical pain I’ve been going through since week 6 or 7 as pregnant. Earlier I planned on writing about what I went though, now I really just want to look forward. But mind you! I would do it all over again, so don’t let this scare you if you’re yet to become pregnant. All pregnancies are different.
My skin – Oh man… The hormones has really mirrored back to my skin by giving me acne. Painful acne. Luckily I’ve seen it has started to heal and dry out a lot over the last few days. All I’ve done to heal it, is to drink more water, be careful with what skin care products I use, and I’ve just been wearing make-up in a few occasions.
My happiness level – I’ve talked about it before, but I haven’t struggled with any anxiety or depression since becoming pregnant. I just feel like a new version of myself. A happier, lighter, stronger, and more chilled version. I LOVE BEING PREGNANT! There’s nothing more I want than being a MUM and creating my own FAMILY!
The love I feel for my husband – The way I see him now is different. It’s deeper, with more respect and understanding. I feel like I love him with more ease too. I just love him so much I could hold him and kiss him all day! Nothing is more important to me than creating a happy and healthy family, and I would do ANYTHING to keep it that way<3
The understanding and respect for single mothers/fathers and parents in general – I’ve always respected parents who, despite the circumstances, manage to raise their children in a physically, spiritually, and emotionally healthy way. Being pregnant is challenging, it’s an emotional rollercoaster, and at the same time very beautiful. It deserves A LOT of recognition! So being a parent deserves even more recognition!!!
My values and priorities – I still value the same things, however, I value them in a different order now, with more power. Like unconditional love, family, and freedom. I value those three aspects of life with a whole new depth than before! And to give an example of my priorities: it’s not so much about how I look anymore, but rather how I feel. And what makes me feel good now, is being healthy (on all levels), feeling loved, and giving love back. Pretty simple.
The way I see myself – I’m much stronger (mentally, obviously, haha), I have more confidence, and I respect and love myself on a much deeper level. It feels amazing to just KNOW what I deserve and go after it in such a natural way! I have my baby to thank for that! Knowing that I’m becoming a mum gives me so much inner-strength!
Much more sensitive and emotional – As you might now, I’m already a highly sensitive person, but this pregnancy has just made me even more sensitive! I now cry of songs I’ve listened to a million times before, I cry of totally normal adds, pictures, and short films. Almost everything that has to do with children, I just can’t handle, haha! Things that are happy, I sob of, and things that are a liiittle sad, I cry of.
My body – I don’t feel a type of way when it comes to my body, but it has definitely changed. Due to lots of pain and struggling with nausea, I’ve had huge trouble eating, so I’ve lost A LOT of weight (I took a picture of my back a few days ago and it scared me.) I even felt bad for my husband when I was sitting on his lap, because my butt has become so bony, lmao! The main things that has changes for my body, is the weight I’ve lost and how my breasts has grown. I can’t wait till I start gaining my weight back and my stomach gets big and round!
Aaand let’s not forget the bathroom visits. The million times I have to pee throughout the day. Not to talk about how many times a night I have to wake up! I can’t even imagine how it’s going to be like later in the pregnancy..
The skirt I’m wearing is only $10 now! Get it HERE!
Last night I was enjoying myself with music (Jessica Sanchez – she’s insaaane! Been listening to her for years!) and looking for pregnant clothing, while Anthony was working on his new webinar. I’m SO happy to have him back! I finally got a release of the pain I’ve been experiencing this week. Feels like a blessing sent from heaven, seriously, haha! I barely could eat or sleep, so being able to take naps and eat fresh bread ++ yesterday was A M A Z I N G !
I’m obsessed with the two pieced set I wore in my previous post, so I’m getting it in burgundy as well HERE! It’s so important for me to find comfortable clothes that I can wear as I’m chilling around the house, but also for when I go out for errands (still wanna look cute, lol). The clothes from Shein.com are suuuper cozy and not too tight, even when you choose the “tight fitting” style.
Nr. 1 HERE!
Nr. 2 HERE!
Nr. 3 HERE!
Nr. 4 HERE!
Nr. 5 HERE!
Nr. 6 HERE!
Nr. 7 HERE!
Nr. 8 HERE!
Omg! I’m sooo exited for next month!!! That’s when we – most likely – get to know if I’m carrying a boy or a girl! The biggest reason we want to know, is to be able to connect even deeper with the baby. I feel like when we know what sex it is, it’s easier to imagine it being here with us. Using its name will make everything more real as well<3
Nr. 9 HERE!
Nr. 10 HERE!
Nr. 11 HERE!
Nr. 12 HERE!
These items will suit you just as good if you’re pregnant as if you’re not, in my opinion. At least if your stomach hasn’t grown too much yet, haha! I just thought I would share my favourites on a budget, cause I know I have some pregnant readers who might want some ideas.
Wishing you a calm, christmasy, and magical Sunday<3